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This is Remus Lupin. Please message me here for any questions regarding the Clinic or tutorials at the dojo.
If you have just arrived and know my voice, call me. I'll find you.
Sona si latine loqueris.*
If you have just arrived and know my voice, call me. I'll find you.
Sona si latine loqueris.*
voice
Date: 2011-11-15 05:12 am (UTC)[ Verity's voice reciting it Mist-feverishly comes abruptly back to him, with the accompaniment of a phantom pain in his shoulder, the smell of that trash heap and smoke and Mist and blood. And the fear, that he hates so much. ]
Christ. I think I'm going mad.
voice
Date: 2011-11-15 04:25 pm (UTC)So Lupin must settle himself at first to prod unhelpfully:]
Howso?
voice
Date: 2011-11-15 09:24 pm (UTC)[ His tone is hollow with these revelations. But there's bitterness there, because he can't fight monsters that only exist in his head, could barely fight them when they came back huge and real to Anatole. ]
It runs in my family, you know.
voice
Date: 2011-11-19 12:12 pm (UTC)In my world— [not even: the muggle world, but that's an unnecessary and uninteresting distinction right now] —we call it Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. Or, when war-related, shell-shock. When someone's been through a truly terrible event, it's not uncommon for them to experience too-vivid memories of it, even flashbacks, both waking and asleep. Full-sensory flashbacks, sometimes: sights, smells, physical sensations; it can be fully enveloping.
With awareness, and willingness to confront and work through the memories, it can be a temporary condition. It will fade with time. And I believe it is not the same as madness, nor even a form of it. Even when, sometimes, we can't understand why it's connected to one particular event rather than another, or we believe it's a situation we've already dealt with to its… explicable limit.
voice
Date: 2011-11-20 01:12 pm (UTC)I see. Thank you.
voice
Date: 2011-11-25 03:59 am (UTC)So he changes the subject.]
Which story did you read?
voice
Date: 2011-12-01 12:02 pm (UTC)[ He'd been feeling morbid, after all. ]
Shakespeare's better.
[ If they're going to change the subject, he'd rather it be to one which doesn't make him feel painfully self-deprecating and at odds with himself. ]
voice
Date: 2011-12-06 06:23 am (UTC)[If anyone's like Merlin in that story to Arthur, mightn't it more be…? Living backward in time and all that. …Or was that T.H. White's version. You'd think they'd cover these in more depth at Hogwarts, but in fact these versions were thought of more as fanfiction than foundational texts.]
At least you'll understand next time I forget myself and use his name as an expletive. It's nothing personal.
voice
Date: 2011-12-06 09:53 pm (UTC)voice
Date: 2011-12-10 04:59 am (UTC)